The opportunistic inadequacy syndrome.
Becoming ones lifes own rockstar, eternally on the stage of life.
Avoiding the life off the stage and secretly disornering those who do.
This is my friend.
He tends to forget me, stay out of touch for weeks.
For then to return as nothing ever happend.
Kind'a like a rockstar, I guess.
Ironically I think we both envy eachothers lives;
he my daily peace, and I his ever changing spindle of friends.
Maybe it this keeping us together or it is this that will eventually seperate us.
This is to all of you who have a friend like this.
Break with him or ask him why.
I have done neither.


Anxious, off course,

Again

Once again its back. The anticipation of peace of mind was false. To try and try, though still it keeps reminding me of itself. Stop evaluating yourself I said to myself and wondered what I did bad today.
People all around me; surrounded. Near but never within. Even girls...but nevet within!
I try every day but it still stays the same. Even when it doesn't remind me; it's there.
Fault; its all mine. Take care in my company; for whenever you have a bad day I blame me for not making you laugh. Whenever you feel uncapable of studying, I feel inadequate as a friend because I cannot relieve your feeling of inadequacy.
To stop; I can't.